i hate you.

merry christmas

2006-12-25T01:28:00.000-08:00

merry christmas.

love you.

a greenday shirt
hollister shirt.

WEEEEE!!! WINTER BREAK!!!!

2006-12-22T18:37:00.000-08:00

WOOOOO!!!!

FINALLYYYY!!!!!!!

WOOOO!!!!

WINTER BREAK!!!!!!!!

so damn happy!!!

i SO need a break man.
dang...

i've been working hard the past few months..
with basketball and studies.

and i think i deserve this.

very much.

hmm... practice was over at 230pm...

heeeheee.... chonda and i went down to the locker rooms to change, but it wasn't open... so we changed OUTSIDEE!!! hahahahah.... i just took off my shirt and jeans and changed... OUTSIDE!!!! LOLL... and this woman passed by... hahahaha.... at least it wasn't a guy... LOLLLLLL.

burger king!!! with Jesus, Meribeth, Adrian & David.
WOAAH MAN. it always fun with them around.
hahaha... i didn't spend a cent cos they were paying me back. muha!

ARCADEEE!!!!
fucking Adrian... hes so fucking ggod at DDR. and he's a beaner.
i feel bad cos i'm asian and i'm supposed to know that shit... LOLL.

200 and something tickets... hahaha.... i got another spongebob sponge. LOLL.
meribeth and jesus got a hackey-sack each... and we were playing outside... i fucking suck man. LOLLLLL.

but its fun laughing at eachother... hahahaha.... idiots man.

its been very very very very chilly.
very windy and COLD!!!

I LOVE IT!!!

its a great beginning to the winter break. finally.

galjh

2006-12-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

hey people.
i just woke up... and i'm frickin tired.. still.
hah.. took alot of pics in class.
ugh.. been getting more and more tired.
too busy with school.
but at least i get good grades. =)

basketball everyday.
WOAH. fucking tired.

and i'm craving for sushi.

and i used to like this guy.
but turns out his effing conceited.

so to hell with that guy.

guys like him aren't worth my time.

fag.

ugh. i wanna post pics but i'm too fucking lazy.

wtf?....
nica is so fucking rude.

fuck her and her bf.

home game VS community charter

2006-11-27T20:50:00.000-08:00

yey!
worked my ass off.
AND WE WON!!!

31-26.
YESSS!

cell model project due on thursday.
FUCK.
so tired now.

happy LATE thanksgiving.

WOAHHH.

2006-11-03T23:01:00.000-08:00

WOAH. its been a long time.
skool has been hectic..
very?.. maybe.
basketball varsity player.
i need my physical.
today. was the first ever HOME game for the Panorama Pythons. WE WON.
dang. i feel dead now...
trying not to type "haha"
hmm.. see, the world is too serious.
with war and killing. can't it just take a break?
my skool friends are narcissistic hypocrites who care about nothing but themselves(and they think they're kool).
they think all i have is them. EW.
gross. i'd probably turn suicidal.

FIRSTT DAYY!!!!!

2006-10-03T18:35:00.000-07:00

heheh. A-building=p

that's the quad. took an ugly pic tho... gahh.
view from the 4th floor of the C-building
...more pics to come... =p

WWWWOOOO!!!!!
first day of skool was FUNN!!!... i saw my friends WEEE!!... and luckily my teacher's arent boring (for now..)hahaha... hmm,,, i didn't know i was taking honors classes -__-" makes me feel special... hahahahah
i only realised that after my first period!!... LOLLLLL
heh. no homework for today!!..
ugh. i'm still undecided on what sport to take.... maybe basketball but i don't wanna be in JV yet...
hmm... i think i should just wait for the froshoph basketball season.. hehehe...
oh yea.. and my third period teacher is filipino!!.. and she's soo FOB. hahahaha... we're fObulous.. yep we are. =p
THE STAIRS ARE KILLING MEE!!!
the only thing that i hate is that we can't leave when the bell rings JUST BECAUSE WE'RE THE HONORS CLASS!!!! GAHH... that means we have to wait for the teacher to dismiss us.. NOT FAIRR!!!.. other regular classes just leave... UGH.
hahaha.. oh well,,hopefully the year goes well...
went to watch the boys basketball froshoph game.
of course we lost, i'm not expecting much from my new skool,,
they've been practicing in the park before the skool opened.. so i can't blame that..
hahaha...
i just can't wait to play...

JAMMINGG!!!

2006-09-30T20:23:00.000-07:00

OOOOOH!!! jamming todayyy!!!
hahahaha
at patrick's house..

first song was Welcome to the black parade
hahahah... weird.. i was singing.. LOLLL

oh.. and we recorded Rapid Hope Loss.
video's comming out laterr.
=p

WOOOHOO!!! orientation!!!!

2006-09-27T18:38:00.000-07:00

wahh. today is a happy dayy!!
i finally checked out my NEW skool!!!
OMG!!!
its THE BOMB!!!!!
its sooo kool!!
the auditorium is soo kool with the chairs and all
the gym is the shit!
the classrooms and the tables............ OMGGGG!!!!!
SOOO KOOOOOL!!!!!!!!!!
and it has a pool!!! WOAHH!!!
the locker rooms are so kool too!!!!
and the showers!!!
its the KOOLEST SKOOL EVER!!!!
hmm... i should take a pic of the skool.. hahaha
but my classes ARE GAYYY!!!!!

per 1: english 10a
per 2: painting 1a
per 3: geometry a
per 4: World history
per 5: biology A
per 6: graphic design.

EEW. i wanna take a music class or something.
and sports. i'm not even sure if there's basketball for ladies. ugh!!
i'm thinking of volleyball now... i just wanna do something...
i don't wanna stay FAT!!! noooo!!!!

been a long time

2006-09-25T17:21:00.000-07:00

ooooo. wow. dang. haven't been bloggin for a long time... hahah
nothing much has been happening these days,, hahaha
hmm... edited alot of pics...

oh wow. really nothing much to say.
OMg. orientation this wednesdayyyy!!!
sooo excited dude!!! haha.

twin outing?? LOLLL

2006-09-17T12:01:00.000-07:00

twin outing yesterdayy??
haha.

karla+paula=twins
nima+nica=twins

gyeeea. it was so funn. we went with our moms to check out the laser tag, ULTRAZONE.
actually nica didn't come. but yea. jana tagged along.
WOAAAAHHHH!!!!!
we're gonna have SOOOOO much fun on our birthday BASHHHH!!! WAHHHH.
cos we're celebrating it together. yuupppp!!! twins+twins= FUNNNNNNNNNN!!!!
hahaha. we toured around the place... SOOOOO COOOOOLLLL!!!!!!
urgh. we didn't get to play though. but we still had fun laughinggggggg.hahaha

after we checked out the place we went to pick up some pizza.
and went over to our houseee. CHAAAAAOOOOSSSSSS!!!!
hahaha. we were playing table tennis and we were laughing sooooo hardd hahahahha.
after that we went to write the invites. hahaha. still not sure how to do it cos there's an after party over at their house. and we wanted to write it on the invites too. gyeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. we're gonna get sooo wasted. LOLLLLL
hahaha.

ewww i just stepped on a needlee.

2006-09-14T22:11:00.000-07:00

i just stepped on a needle!!! EEEEW.
my sore throat is getting much better...
urgh... but i have to sleep early... its already "late". hahah

i don't even know if i'm gonna have a parrty.
urgh. whyy?.. everything is ruinedd.
why can't they just say NO.
instead of beating around the bush?
huh??
is it so hard to say NO?
why are you giving me hope?
WHY??
when u know there is none?..
so that i won't cryy?
because you don't wanna break my spirit?
well, u already have....................................
thanks to you.

SORE THROATTTT

2006-09-12T07:24:00.000-07:00

urgh. i've been having this really bad sore throat.. well,, i don't know if u consider it bad.. but for me it is.... i can't eat well,, i can't laugh well,,, at least its getting better now..

the lozenges are totally not working for me...

i slept really early yesterday...
SORRY RAYY! i had to cut the fun short cos of my dad. hahahahha.

ya.. i got woken up by it... only 720am now...
-.- its killing meeeee.......!! grrrr.

hmm hahhaa... i told iceal that i was gonna blogg yesterday... hahahahha.. but i didn't.. LOL.
so i'm bloggin early in the morning... quite stupid to be blogging this early.. but oh well,, i was supposed to blog yesterday....

hmm.. lemme see... LESS THAN 3 WEEKS TO SKOOOOOLLL!!!!! WEEEEE!!!
i really wanna go to skool... hhahaha... sounds retarded... but yea..

i've been watching ONE PIECE very often.
i mean VERY VERY OFTEN.
hahaha... its such a funny show...
and there are sad times... that just wanna make u feel like crying..
hahaha.. i'm already on episode 88 i think... =))
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the physical pain and mental torture.
i have become immune to them.
these scars they'll stay forever.
never knowing what lies between.

does truth even exist?
or is the truth even illegal?
i cannot see ur face anymore.
i have been blinded by the love.
or is it fear that holds us together?
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uhh.. just some random poem. =))

1 house warming and a party

2006-09-10T17:54:00.000-07:00

HOLYYYY SHITTTTT!!!!
woke up at 630 am.
=)) on saturday.

off to homer's place...=))
went to do some errands with kuya homerrrr.
oh. we also went to get duchess. his gf. ugh. 45 mins drive?...
haha ya.

didn't go to olive's house.
for wat?... waste time.

i think it was alreadyyy,, 2pm?..
we went to a birthdayy parrty. don't know who but its some little girl's.. yhahhaha
played scrabble. after that we played table tennis=))
its been a long time since i played. hahaha.
but i still beat iceal. hahahah.

it was already 745pm.
hahaha. went back to homer's place with ateh kris and kuya jamboy.
and of course saw ateh daness and oliverrr.
=))
went to watch a movie.
ACCEPTED. fucking funnnnnnnyyyy!!!!!
hahahahahahaha.
with oliver and jayjay.
hahahah. i was the one holding the popcorn.
cos i wat sitting in the middle.
ahahah. it was funny cos they were both like grabbing the popcorn.
and looking at their arms going back and forth was funny. hahaha.

movie ended at 1130PM?...
hhaha, still had to wait for the rest. their movie wasn't finished yettt.
waiting for the rest.. hahahaha.
we hid behind the wall... they didn't notice us.. hahahahahha. we were like chuckling so hardddd. hahahahha...
and i dared jamboy to run through the sprinklersss
he got himself WETT AND coldd.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
it was a cold night... really cold.. =))
eeeeew and he pulled his pants and boxers down in public!!!!!
dang. we girls saw it... EEEEEEW.... hahahahha
stupid jumboy...

hmm... waiting for a ride.
got back to homer's house at 1230AM.
played the guitarrrr!...
trashed the whole place!!
took picturessss!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!
olive was playing with these handcuffs.
stupid guy handcuffed me together with his stupid arm. stupid fuckerr.
but luckily i know how release it. hahahahhaha.
then he said that jumboy bought him for a Billion bucks.
i said "ONLY a billion?"
he replied "ur not even worth a dollar"
i was like "SHUT UP"
and he left.
he is such a jerk!
OMG! never heard that come from anyone before...

hahaha. he came back, gave me a hug and said sorry.
urgh. once a jerk always a jerk.

one by one... my friends leave for home...
grrrrr. i was flat out tiredd!.. it was already 2AM.. (told you ray...)
i was lying down... making out poems and ramdom sentences...
and fell asleeep... dang.
got woken up.
time to go home!!!!!!! YEYYYYY!!!
wooohooooooooo!!!
wahahahah.
left homer's house at 245AM.

GOT HOME AT 315AM. it was already sunday, which is today.
KO.

ateh kris and iceal

jamboy's roooom! and his guitarrrr =))
hahaha.

i'm not wearing BLACKK!!!!!!!! hahahahhaha.
ateh daness. jessica. ateh kris and mEEE!
and oliver who killed the picture...

wat am i doing???..... i really don't know.... wahahha.

ICEAL!

ATEH KRIS!

OLIVER!!!! u still owe me 7 bucks!!!

jana. jessica. nikki

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throw back pictureEEEEE!!!!

i miss u duchess!!
old pic. i know. i look GAYYYYY. hahahha

grrr. darn that guitar.

2006-09-06T23:08:00.000-07:00

my wrists are hurting from playin the guitar too much. LOL.
trying too play coheed and cambria's welcome home. the acoustic intro.
dang. i'm actually getting the hang of the quickness. but i'm still toooooo slowww.

been chatting online with nico these past few days.
talking about our problems..
he can't get over this girl.
haha.
it feels good that we're getting closer.
i'm finally discovering who my real friends are. hahaha.
yea. after a year. of staying in this shithole.
i actually have REAL friends.
the first time we met,, we only said hi to each other.
now we're like sharing our problems.
=))
didn't know he was so emo before.
hahha.
he is such a great krumper.
great at dancing. dang. i wish i can krump like that.
hahahahahahahahah.
that's crazy.

can't wait to hang with my friends.
urgh. i don't wanna see oliver.
but oh well. its house warming at his house.
all of us are meeting there too.
i wish he won't go to the movies with us.
he is such a stupid friend.
heard from nico that he has a gf?...
and he didn't even tell me.
that dumdum.
gonna ask him the next time i see him.
=))

no. iceal is not gay. ahahaha.

i just love this picture of bruce for some reason.
LOL.

yes. pass on the baton of shame. wahaha. stupid oliver. stupid face.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONJON & JUSTIN!

2006-09-04T16:52:00.000-07:00

yesterday was jonjon's and justin's birthday!... hahaha
it was so fun... there were so many people!! really!.. hahaha
we were one of the first teens to reach woodley parrrk.
when dumbass got there... it felt so awkward....
he even said that i was acting awkward around him...
but after awhile i got used to it.. hhahaha..

we when to the jumping thingy
i was the only girl at first... lol...
who cares?... i wanna have fun..
iceal, nico, oliver and i.
were playing on it like crazy people... hahahahhaa
banging ourselves, falling and laughing hahahaha!!
it was soooo hott!!
the ladies joined us afterwards..
ateh jaime, ateh daness, ateh jeleen && ateh kris=)
having so mucho fun.

after that we took videos of the children hitting the superman pinata.
AHAHAHA. they were hitting supermans balls wahhahaa.

took ALLOTTTT of picturess....
ahahahha. =))

bruce and brian came.
dang. bruce is really good with magic tricks...
wow. he taught me one too!!!! hahahahahahah
YES!!!
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when it was dark we went to oliver's house to chill.
oooo. he broke his sister's mirror... OOOOOOO.
seven years of bad luck. wahahhaa, YES!!
when to oliver's room to play his electric.
grrrr. he can play the whole unholy confessions song... grrrr
i should get an electric.... urgh. but i'm broke.

got home at 2AM.
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the stupid looking superman pinata.

me on the jumper.. wahahaha.

BLACKKKKKKKK

2006-09-02T22:52:00.000-07:00

i went to black rosary at nico's house today!!!!
not much teens there. but the rest of us still had FUN.
although i just hated it when we had to leave early.

OH YEA. I DYED MY HAIR!!!!
hurhur.
guess wat color?

BLACK!!!!
wahahaha. dumb right?..
but it's the safest color.
hurhur.
yes. and i didn't mess it up =))
i'm really happy with the results!!
hahahahah.
i finally darkened my brown tips.!!
AHAHAHAH.
after 2 years of having it.
finally! something different!
BLACK!
wahahahaha. not really. but oh well.

LA dodgers!!!

2006-08-31T00:24:00.000-07:00

FOAM FINGERSSSSS

GYEAAAAAAA.....

FOOD && pictures???

ESCAPE or get FINGERED!!!!

weeee!!... today was fun!!!
we went to watch the LA-dodgers in the Dodgers stadium!
with JANA
there were 3 home runs,, of course we won... and one home run, the ball landed at our area... but it was like 10 feet away where the ball landed!!!
dang.. could've caught the ball...
wahahaha.... anyways... those beach balls were being hit around.. and i managed to touch it 5 times!!!! kooooool!!!
and we got foam fingers!!! it says #1 FAN. and dodgers at the back...
how kool is that??.....
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anyways... i just found out that i have to wear a PINKK dress to ateh coco's wedding cos i'm one of the ushers...
its gonna be my first time wearing a DRESS in america.
but does it have to be PINK????
i'm sure that's gonna be my first and last time EVER wearing a pink dress.
hmm... but somehow i can't wait... maybe cos its like my first time...
and no one can actually picture me in a PINKK dress.
even PAPA cant picture me in a pink dress.
that's why i wanna prove them wrong?..
i CAN wear a pink dress.
hurhur.... i'm gonna look so girly.. i'll start to look weird.
wahahahha.
oh yea... i'm wearing a pinkk dress with a white Ribbon on my hair.
nice.

i love my happy butt =)

<3333

pics

2006-08-28T17:36:00.000-07:00

this is getting annoying..
everytime i send oliver aka gapz a message,,
all he replies is "WOW".
URGH!!! i got so annoyed,,
i didn't even reply him anymore...
i DONT even wanna reply him....
URGH.................
wasting my effing time.
here i am,,
trying to have a proper convo.
and ur killing it.
fine, that's how u want it to be.
>8(

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why a new myspace?

2006-08-27T21:56:00.000-07:00

i made a new myspace...
why
u may ask?

well. i don't know,,
new myspace, new life?...
hmm...
i really don't know.
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i tried the myspace blog.
and its so user-unfriendly.
i wanted to change my blog to myspace blog,
but i'm not used to it.
and it sucks.
everytime i post it, it doesnt go through and i have to write it all over again...
grrrr.
i hate that.
so i decided to stay with my blogspot.
its wayyyyy better.
<3333
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i refuse.

i refuse to be down.
i have to look up.

i refuse to cry.
i have to suck it in and smile.

i refuse to be sad.
i have to be happy.

i refuse to be negative.
i have to be positive.

i refuse to be emo.
i have to be hippy.

i refuse to be depressed
i have to think happy thoughts.

i refuse to be left hanging
its either i ask or don't.

i refuse to be lonely
i have more friends than i ever need.

i refuse to be.... me?....
i have to change for the better.

wah?

2006-08-27T00:58:00.000-07:00

hmm... i wonder what i'm gonna be for halloween?...
last year i was a flat-out pumpkin.
which gave oliver time to mock me for the rest of the night.
should i just be myself?....
i mean,, i have enough black clothes to make up a costume.,,
wahahha.
================
oh yea, yesterday, i was flooding people and myspace stopped me from sending anymore picture comments.
oh well,,, hope it works today....
maybe i'm gonna do more flooding?
hurhur.
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i wanna go to skool.
summer vacation is almost over.
&& everyone is going to school!!!
EVEN JANA!!!!
grrrrrr!!!
why did the skool have to be postponed??
URGH.
i'm so pissed.
its ok nima...
its only on october... grrrrr

just let it flowwwww

2006-08-25T17:09:00.000-07:00

ok, i gave up, i signed into myspace.
and i gave up on rehab. well, at least for now.
=======================================
i went to visit jana's new middle skool!!
wow. its sooo big. frickin magnet skools.
wahahhaa.
queued up so long just to buy uniform.
DAMN.
u know while we were waiting in line,
we saw this woman with an ENORMOUS ASS!!!
its like, she's soooo thin, and OUT popS an ASS.
fu ck. its not even proportioned to her body.
brrrrr. it was obvious she had surgery.
her daughter's a slut too. so yea.
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My bestfriend

My best friend falls in love with me.
Before I can even catch my breath,
He is asking questions
That my heart can't answer.
I went through a sleepless night.
Everything was going too fast.
I wanted to tell him
My feelings were not that way.
He asked me out and I didn't know what to say.

Days have gone and the awkwardness lurks.
Something is stirring inside of me.
I need to blurt it out.
I need someone to listen.
Are my feelings for him changing?
Or is this just an illusion?
All I need is help.
I have fallen.

Finding out that the love he had has turned around,
I’m left all alone with these thoughts in my head.
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
"Get over him Nima,
It is just a summer fling."
With help from my friends,
With my heart in my stomach.
I realized.
I've been talking to the wrong people.
I've been doing the wrong thing.
When all I had to do was to tell him.
The truth.
That my feelings for him have turned deep.

"I need to talk to you.
Well, I thought that being best friends was better.
But I was wrong.
urgh. I don't know, but I feel different.
And that's all I want to say."
I hung up.
With thoughts racing through my head.
A message from him,
Woke me up from my nightmare.
"You will always be my best friend,
and that'll never change."

This phrase i've learnt from not so long ago,
Love can leave you.
but true friendship always stays.

Life Is Beautiful.
================================
life is beautiful.
yes it is.
i feel like i just woke up from a bad dream.
and i realized how beautiful life is.
everything worked out like how its supposed to be.

==========================
oliver, if ur reading this,
ur my bestfriend.
nothing is ever gonna change that.
i'm happy u chose to be.
i'll never regret anything.
as a bestfriend,
i love you.
and i always will.

29 days left

2006-08-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

yes!!... 29 days left.
oliver,, ur gonna loose.
so prepare ur 5 bucks. hurhur.
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the way i look at this,
is something that i missed.
Something that will be gone forever.

I have to forget those feelings for you.
I have to realise that it will never come true.
Your decisions were final,
bestfriends forever.
But was that what i really wanted?

Well, i guess good things must come to an end.
As we're living in a world of change.
Acceptance is my only cure,
to know that we'll be friends for sure.
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hurhur. i've been going on friendster more than usual now that i'm not going to myspace. its not that i can't go on myspace,, its just that i wanna prove that i can control myself. oh yea. and i made a bet with oliver that if i did sign in for the next 29days, i have to give him 5bucks. NO WAY JOSE!!!... eat my dust.
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oh yea,, karla young'un(we call eachother "young'un" cos we're the younger twin) and i panned our birthday parrrty. hurhur.
its gonna be special cos we're combining our parties together.
so its like a twin twin birthday party,, cos she has a twin too. =))
we're going laser tagging. its gonna be fun. we invited about 11people.
all of them are from LAsing. so its gonna be fun cos all of us know eachother.
including us, its 15 people. its much cheaper than magic mountain. but now all we need to do is convince my parents. they say its tooooooo expensive. no its NOT!!!!
altogether is only $270 for 15 people. and we divide that by 2 so all that my parents have to pay is $135. which i think really doesn't cost much for 15 people.
and after laser tagging we'll go to someone's house and eat and chill. that'll be fun? wouldn't it?...=))
--------(young'uns rule. HELL YES.)------------

countdown: 30 days

2006-08-23T09:30:00.000-07:00

ok,, so i dared myself to not sign into myspace for a month.
hurhur. kindda stupid but yea...
30 more days.

hmm.. movies 2 days ago. with jana, nikki, jessica and nic. i felt to old cos we were the oldest ones. but yea. PEOPLE,,
DONT EVER WATCH PULSE,
ITS THE GAYEST MOVIE EVER.
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i wanted to blog yesterday but nica was using the comp.
ugh. now i have competition. cos usually she sleeps early.

so yea, yesterday nothing much was msging HIM all day.
haha. yea. =)
i miss HIM.

And yesterday,, we found out that they said that our dance was messed up.
"messed up rendition of HIPHOP"
how can they say that?
we practiced hard for this,
and this is all we get?...
it was a tie,
so what?...
everyone was a winner.
and i really don care.
stupid people just wanna make our lives complicated.=p

ok nima,, 30 more days. u can do it. yes u can!!!

palarong pics.

2006-08-21T09:47:00.001-07:00

here it is ray.. just for you.... lol

another pic from ate jamie's bday..
oh yea,, did i mention that the score was 53-42?...

too bad.. u missed out on the fun...

oliver and our MVP mitchell.
wahahahahha. all is good. look at oliver's face. so fucking cute.
this is probably the best pic i've ever seen...

PALARONG 2006

2006-08-20T20:55:00.000-07:00

WOW!!!!!.. today was great!!!!
went to the indoor basketball gym.

first up volley ball.
my dad played in the men's.
we won!!

next was voleyball women's
and we lost... =((

after that was us!!!!
YEY!!! WE WON!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!
and i got a medal too!!!!!! YEY!!!!!!!
the other team had a girl too... and everytime i went into the court she would go too... lol
the only difference is she can't play...
i stole the ball while she was trying to pass it.
lol. WAHAHAHA.
stupid.
and oliver made two 3-pointers!!!
woohooo!!! go fhubby!!!!
mitchell,, our MVP,, was sooooo goood.
damn. and hes tall. idol!!!... and i added him in myspace. hurhur

after our game was the adults
and they loss...

so we were the only ones from the valley who won something.

the cheerleading was a tie.
urgh. hahaha.

SORRY RAY!!!!... I DIDN'T TAKE A VIDEO...
REALLY SORRY... I KNOW U WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO MAKING FUN OF ME...
BUT YEA.. I FORGOT. hurhur.

i miss HIM.
so much.
i love his hugs.
AAHHH. nima,, shutup.
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going to the movies with twins tmr.
TWIN OUTING... lol
its karla and paula!!
me and karla are the young'uns.
cos we were born after them.
hehehhee. cool.
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i'm watching fight science right now.
its probably the coolest educational show i've ever watched.

the stupid face of victory.
more pics tmr.

happy 18th birthday ate jaime!!!!!

2006-08-19T02:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BURSTDAY to ate jaime!!!!!... luv ya!.. muah!... hurhur
her birthday party was at my house!!!! WOOHHOOO!!!!
FUN AS HELL!!!!

so nice to hang out with friends.
we were supposed to have dance practice..
hurhur.
but i didn't practice.
i'm just gonna learn the steps from jana.lol

him and i talked.
we were like quiet.
haha. he asked.
i said, wouldn't it be weird?
what if our parents found out?
how?....................
he said we'll just stay as best friends. =)
and i'm kool about it.
but something inside me wants him.
sooner or later something is gonna drive me nuts about him.
maybe he's gonna get over me?..

after awhile,, more people joined us.
paula was practicing her skateboard too.
damn she's good.
and i told jana, nikki and karla twin to have a race with this dance move that jana had.
ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!
stoopid. me and paula were watching them!!!
HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahhaa

he went home. didn't even notice that he went. lol.
gave him a call,, asked why he didn't say goodbye.

i had to talk to someone.
kuya homer.
hes great.
i told him.
he said he knew.
it was obvious.
i told him basically everything.
and to keep his gap shut.

he called!... just to say goodnight.
how sweet.
and i was still talking to kuya homer.
HE asked if there was practice. i said we'll see.
it was already 1215AM when he called.

haha. after the "talk", badminton!!
in the middle of the night. lol.
jamboy, ate jeleen, and birthday girl ate jaime.
fun times. =)

its over 230 am.
urgh. tired as hell. hurhur.
pics tmr.
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shyt. just woke up.
i need rest.

badminton,, gyea!!!!

sisters for life!!hurhur

the very controversial birthday cake picture.

last but not least,, a picsture with the burstday girl. =)
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dance practice today. finally was able to do most of the stpes right.
get ready for tomorrow's game and dance. hell yea.
we're gonna ball them like for sure!!!!!!
WAHHH!!! can't wait. lol. tired now. gotta sleep early.
buhbye peeps!// love ya..

thanks for the hug oliver. appreciate it. =)

2006-08-18T06:57:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh. its 653 am.
can't sleep. shit.
i keep thinking about it.
how?..................
.....................
....................

ray said i should try it out.
should i?...
maybe i should.
try?

hes like my bestfriend.
how?...................
......................
.....................

AAAAH.
try not to think about it nima..
go to sleep.

nothing but pics

2006-08-15T23:31:00.000-07:00

past few days been playing alot of gunbound....
editing pics....
texting oliver "the chubby"... hurhur...
sorry,, short post.
less than 2 months to my birthday.
and 5 more days til the basketball match!!!
(i'm actually more worried about the dance....)

yea,, hope u burn in hell.

OMG!!... i just saw porn. jkjkjkjkjk

basketball practice

2006-08-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

WWOOOOO.... i'm so damn tired.
played basketball the whole day.
from the morning till evening....

it was fun,, we practiced our defence.
and some strategies on offence but we didnt really practice it.
all day long.

oh yea, i rode on oliver's skateboard.
and i'm getting better.. yey!!!
tried to pivot but i fell!!
damn!!

after basketball practice was dance practice.
hurhur....

now i'm tired as hell!...

i'm gonna sleep soon.
ciao.

woah.....

2006-08-12T20:05:00.001-07:00

i got home at 330AM today..
so tired.

went to oliver's and ateh danessa's house. (their siblings).
practiced with everyone. stupid oliver was just there neing and extra.

ther was this funny thing that happened to me yesterday. lol.
so we just arrived at their place,
i said hi to ateh daness.
i went to oliver's room to say hi.
i was right ther at his door,
my mouth was about to say hi.
then i saw this half-naked white guy in oliver's room.
scared me man.
damn,, i ran all the way back to ateh danessa's room.
cause i thought the one in oliver's room was him.. lol..
it actually kindda scared me. hahahahha.
i asked the rest where oliver was.
and he was hiding in ateh danessa's closet.
the white guy was his friend.
hahahaha.. so funny.

we were done practicing around 12am.
everyone was already tired.
oliver and me went to his room.
played his electric.
damn. he knows unholy confessions. lead guitar.
man.. i wanna learn that too.
and he has this thing that can change the effect of the electric.
NICE..

went out to the living and watch Ladder 49.
halfway through,,
THERE WAS A BLACKOUT!!!!!!!!
they said that the thing exploded!!!
even the streetlights were out.
WAAAA!!!
karla got scared. hahahahahaahahaha.
i went outside and the moon was so bright.
i sat at the front porch with oliver chatting.
hahaha...
saying wat it would be like if the whole country ran out of elctricity.
we'd be dead. and it would be so fucking hot.
its fun chatting with him.
we really got much closer.
he is such a great guy to talk to.
he is such a good friend.

i didnt wanna to back into the house because it was hot inside.
and the moon was so bright and beautiful.
but oliver pulled me in. lol
people inside were playing the guitar with the lights off.
but there's still light from the flashlight.
took the acoustic and just played some random chords.

it was already 3am.
time to go home!!!... yey!!!
i had a great time.
FUN!!!! especially the black out!!! hahaha

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new pics to cover the boredness!

this is JANA. not me. lol

uhh. yup!.. that's me!

another cheer practice

2006-08-11T00:09:00.000-07:00

[thursday night]
well,, i'm kindda tired now, after our cheer practice..
we already finished the "easy part".. yey!...
it was fun practicing today=)

the songs are: hey mickey, which then mixes to bombs over baghdad by outkast.
and that's all for now.

hehe.... we were laughing and dancing
everyone was here....
and karla joined too!!
damn,, she's in the drill team...
and she's so good.. she can do the fricking splitz...
damn.. freaky... but inspiring..lol...

stupid oliver came too.
just to critisize us... lol..
but he's cool
don't worry oliver,, i still love you,,, don't cry.. hahahahhaha

now on myspace...
and chatting...

oh ya,, ray.. try not to think about k?...
think happy thoughts! =)

dance practice tomorrow over at ateh danessa's house!!
its her mom's birthday tomorrow
[but we're giving her a surprise!!]
her mom thinks we forgot her birthday... hehehhee

stupid cheer practice

2006-08-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

URGH. i have to cheer!! fuck it.
I DON'T WANT TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO!!!!!!

i only agreed so that tito joey's plans will go smoothly for the sportsfest.
urgh. other than that it's...EEEW!!!!
there's only 7 of us. and next sunday is the thing.
and we only have 4 sets of 8counts. that's about 20secs.
damn. i'm gonna be tired. cos i'm playing basektball &volleyball.

after that i have to dance????
(i swore myself never to dance)
WAT THE HELL!!!!
urgh. oh well. the others don't want to either.
because first of all, they have skool.
and this is so last minute. only 2 more weeks.
and we don't even know when the next practice is!!!
wat the fuck!!! i REALLY DON'T WANNA DANCE!!!!

AAARHHH!!!!!
stupid cheer thingy.

now the top of my palms hurt, practicing the 6-step... stupid hip-hop.
i don't even listen to that bullshit.

End of Block Rosary... YEY!!!!!!

2006-08-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

bloggin for yesterday.
yesterday was the end for the block rosary.
that means i don't have to pray anymore!
hahahah

i'm so tired now..i slept at 330am..
and i just woke up at 9am

and later there's basektball practice....

it was fun yesterday.
everyone was here.

and all of us, the teens, took over the kareoke.
we were like crazy. plus our singing sucked. haha.
nico was like singing all those backstreet boys songs... hahah
so funny. and he was so emotional.
one by one they went home.
it was already 230AM.
yes. MORNING.

oh yea, and i decided to play basketball.
hurhur. just can't help it.
so the sportsfest commitee were discussing..
2 girls were in the new valley team.
so it was a mixed game.

but the catch is that they can't tap us girls.
hahahahha.
the other team is soo gonna loose.

i'm high outside nelo's apartment.
where the MAMA MARY was passed on.

danessa, eddison,mika,marian,oliver
and of course, me with the popular
"what's that?" pose.

me and oliver that the treadmill.
at home.

nico. singing his heart out. go nico!
btw, he was the only one to get 100points.
hahaa

without any doubt, yours truly.

OH MY GOD!!!!!
its ENRIQUE IGLESIAS!!!!!

more kareoke pics!

ok. don't get me wrong.

JOLLIBEE!!!!

2006-08-04T21:08:00.000-07:00

JOLLIBEE!!!!!!!
yup! i ate chicken joy!
hurhur!!!!

nice.
always the light of my life.
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today woke up damn early cos i could hear the tv. urgh
wow. woke up at 7am++

chatted with my cuzzy.!
fun fun!

hmmm....
after that i watched friends.
got sleepy. so i went back to my room and dosed off.
i had a very good sleep.

played badminton again in the evening.
fun!

upcoming practice

2006-08-02T22:31:00.000-07:00

gosh. i'm so busy with preparation for the LAsing basketball.
urgh. cos i'm like the organizer for our team. and tito joey sad that we were lacking people.
so far there's only 7. but 7 can make it.
unafraid has 7 people.
my skool team has 7 people.&& we still got 2nd.

i'm just afraid that they won't show up for practice.
urgh. that'll suck.

nowadays i barely use the comp.
only at night.

cos the rest of the day i watch FRIENDS.
and i'm already in the 7th season.
damn. why is everything 7 now?
hurhur

anyways, hope everything will come out right.
i mean. 7 is a lucky number. hahaha

LA-sing bowling

2006-07-30T13:05:00.000-07:00

today i went to balboa park to practice volleyball.
there was more people today than the last practice.
i have to practice my serving.
i suck.
i don't know if i'm in the team.
maybe ii'm gonna be a substitute. urgh.
i hate not being the first batch.
i'm NEVER a substitute in basketball.

oliver told me last time that he wanted me
to be in the basketball team.
WITH THE GUYS
(ther's no girls basketball. urgh.)
oh how i want to play basketball so bad.
i agreed.
but now i'm having 2nd thoughts.
AAAH.
cos i'll be the only girl playing
with all the other guys.
and i don't want people to talk about me,

but i don't wanna be put in the
"dike" category, cos first of all,
im not one! i'm fucking straight.
the problem with these people,
is that their so sexist.
and they have big mouths.
they say,
boys will be boys.
girls will be girls.
to me i say,
girls can be better than boys.
isn't this why GOD
gave me basketball skills?

urgh. but i hate the way they look at me
when i play ball with guys.
i know they talk behind my back.
and i hate it.
i mean, who's not gonna talk,
if they see a girl playing basketball
with a bunch of guys?

just because i'm playing a guys sport.
but what people don't know is my passion.
i love it more than anything in the world.
i love it more than my computer.
it's my life.

it's me.

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i'm blogging for yesterday.
we went to the LA-sing bowling tornament yesterday.
we booked 20lanes.
we had uniformed t-shirts.iron-on.
played 4 rounds of bowling. my thumb hurts.
i think its kindda out of shape now.
i got sick of playing it after the 2nd quarter, cos i kept loosing.
hehe.
just not used to loosing. hurhur.

there was this dancing thingy at the bowling.
us teenagers were like trying to follow the arrows.
hahaha. fun.
the other twins, paula and karla. their like ssooo good.
the rest of us are trying to catch up. hahahaha

paula and karl are sooo different from eachother.
paula is the girly-girl type (i mean,, really.)
and karla is the skater type, boyish.
its fun being around them.
although its so weird.
being with another pair of twins.
really weird....................

after bowling, we went to this restaurant where they served
SINGAPOREAN food. hurhur.
although it was good,
nothing will ever compare to the food
in singapore itself.
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OLIVER!!!!!

KUYA JANBOY!!!

and of course, the LA-sing family.
there's more. this is ONLY the valley.
imagine 3times the people.
that's ALMOST everyone.

more

a blog?

2006-07-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

i just finished praying.
right now i'm chatting with my cuzzy.
i feel deeply sad for him. he's such a great guy!
why would anyone wanna dump him?..

cuzzy,, it's better to talk about how you feel
than bottling it all up.
so i want you to kno that i'll always be there for you.
no matter what!
if you need anyone to talk to, i'm there.
i understand how you feel.

when you just feel like dying.
when you just feel like your heart is in your stomach.
when life has no more meaning.
i 've been through it.
all that bullshit.
so we'll talk about it k? =))
although u feel like =((
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when i was playing badminton,,
i thought to myself,
what is a blog really for?
is it for writing about what you did for today
or about how you feel?

in my view,
who the fuck is gonna care about my whereabouts?
when they don't feel ur writing?
then a blog would just be another class essay.

i don't believe that i'm only realizing that right now.
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sometimes, i just feel so left out.
and no one wants me anywhere.
all alone in a crowd.
i'm just the one they go to
when there's no one else.
an extra. a substitute.

even around my family.
especially around nica.
i've never felt so far from her before.
NEVER.

we're just so divided now.
although i see her everday.
she's right in front of me
but yet
she's a mile away.
where's my twin?
where's my other half?

i have lost her.

new blog

2006-07-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

hurhur. i made a new blog today!
i dunno y. out of nothingness.

hmm... well.. i've been watching FRIENDS alot. bcos kuya bj bought the whole 10seasons dvd. damn, i'm still in season 1, 2nd cd!!.. i'm watching it so that i would know atmeast some questions in the new board game they just bought called "FRIENDS scene it"...

so yea. hmm...
nowadays, i'm playing badminton very often. usually when papa comes home and everyone plays. almost everyday actually. papa is so good. urgh. i hate loosing to him. although i never beat him. i will. soon. muahahhaa...

luckily jana's here with me. hurhur.... cos i would be bored to death if she wasn't around or if she was in skool. and i'm so glad she's going to skool around the same time as me. hehe...

hmm... i don't go online that often nowadays. maybe its because of the boared games that they bought. so many. i think 7 board games in 3 days. woo!

tomorrow, i guess it's FRIENDS again!.. there's still a long ass way to go...